iCarly is the cutest show ever! hahahaha. I'm aware that I'm a sophomore in highschool. I just love it. Everyone is so funny! I love Sam.. i think it's cause she's just like me..alright well i'm not gonna rant about iCarly cause i know people will be likeWTF?!
ok...... well now i wanna talk about something that bugs me.
I disappoint myself, alot. I want to be my best and do my best, yet I hold myself back. I am my own worst enemy.
ugh. those 3 statements kill me. this is mainly directed at school, but it definitely also applies to swimming. I want to be a good student.. I want good grades. I want to study. I want to do my homework. Something stops me though, I don't know what. I get distracted easily, which means everything takes me twice as long to do, but also something inside of me holds me back. I just need to get through this school year so that I can attempt to start fresh next year.
ok sooooooooo lets talk about something funny and happy before I bring myself down. ok well, brendan and I both have the same taste in youtube videos. He sent me the link to "retarded policeman" and now I am obsessed with it. There are about 20 "retarded policeman" videos and I've watched like 10 today. hahaa HERES VIDEO 1
Today, as I was zoning out (as usual), I started thinking about what people actually mean when they say something.
FOR EXAMPLE: "Good for you" I know some people may mean well when they say this, but I think this saying is sarcastic and sadistic. Like if someone said, "I got a straight perm for my hair and I really like it", and then someone else said, "good for you". It really means "I don't care, or I don't give a ...." Or like if someone is talking about how they are eating healthy and someone said "good for you".. I think they are just saying that cause they don't wanna be completely rude but I know they could care less.
"I don't care" Some people really could care less, but when most people say it, it means that they REALLY DO care and that they are upset or bothered and they want to hide it so they try to act tough. Like if my parents are criticizing me and I say, "I don't care". Sometimes I don't care cause it's about something stupid, but a lot of the time, I really do care and what they are saying is really wearing me down, but my pride doesn't let me break down. I just act tough and deal with it when I am away from my parents. "I'm fine", "I'm ok" ,or "I'm good" Like I have said before.. some people actually mean it, but most people are actually trying to mask hurt or pain. "I'm fine", "I'm ok", or "I'm good" really means, "I'm not ok, but leave me alone because I don't want to talk about it or I don't want your help". Usually people just wanna go cry in a corner when they say this.
"Give me space" Now, this means what it says, 99% of the time. It means, leave me alone, I don't wanna talk to you right now, go away for a while. Usually a while is longer than 5 days (*hint hint*). The only time this doesn't mean what it says is when those complicated girls say it but they really are playing hard to get. I am NOT one of those girls (*hint hint*).
"I hate you" Well.. this one is complicated. Generally "I hate you" doesn't actually mean "I hate you". Most people don't have the guts to go up to someone they truly hate and say it to them. Usually, people say it when they are upset at someone and being a bit dramatic. Some girls say it when a guy has been a jerk to her. Most of the time they are upset at the guy, but they are too infatuated with him to actually be mad at him. If he apologized (like she wanted him to do because she planned this all so that he would feel bad), then she would go back to drooling over him in 1 second.
This is why people should watch what they say, or analyze what people say to them. People usually use their words to imply something, or dance around something so that they don't have to flat out say it.
You know what i mean. It's finally getting nice outside.. just in time for exams and SOLs. It makes me so angry. I need to study, but i need to go and just chill, to reduce stress and stuff. Why can't we just take a midterm and nothing else? Whatever, school sucks.
Well, I went to Chick-fil-a today, and I realized that it is my favorite fast food place, EVER. It is so clean, the food is really good, AND the people who work there are tight as shit. I went in today and the people were having a conversation with me. It started out with the guy asking me about how my day was and then we were talking about swimming and stuff. I love friendly people!
Ok, so I was listening to "One of Us" by Joan Osborne, and it made me think. What if god was one of us?! Like, seriously. It made me think for a long time. Haha I'm lame:)
OH AND GUESS WHAT GUYS?!!!! I MADE A NEW FRIEND!!!! His name is Brendan and he's really cool. And he made me listen to this song, kids by MGMT.. and i love it. It's been stuck in my head all day. YAY!:D
i love making new friends
that is it for now, but tomorrow... hopefully tomorrow, i will blog about swine flu. and my encounters with a creeper by the name of sergio. and my different laughs
She is very dumb, in more than one way. Today I'm gonna talk about how she can't read to save her life. Here are a few of the words that she mispronounces, even after having corrected her 200 times. ACTUAL WORD----------->MOLLY'S WAY Tsunami-------------->Toosami Aunt Jemima-------> Aunt Jomama Gatorade------------> Gatoregg Ambulance----------> Ambliance
There are many more, but I can't think of them right now.
Also, Molly is very gullible. For instance, if I told her that zoo workers get cancer more often because of exposure to animal feces, she would be like "REALLY?!" and then tell one of her friends who will think she is on crack. HAHA..... IDIOT!
This is weird cause my little sister is a genius. She does robotics at her middle school, and today she told me about how she was looking at a plant almanac and she saw one named the "Virginia Creeper." I thought that was very funny and ironic and I googled it and she was for real. It is supposedly somewhat like poison ivy.
Here is what it looks like for those of you who are interested:
OW, everyone, please learn from me. USE SUNSCREEN, not just browning stuff that claims that it protects from the sun! it doesn't and P.S. i don't look too brown, more like red. GRR! It hurts so bad, especially right between and below my boobs so whenever i bend over to pick something up, in wince in pain. So yeah, just lather your cute (or not cute) self in some SPF.
17 again!!!!!!
I loved that movie! Like seriously loved it! I have never been a Zach Efron lover/ creeper fan but now I am. He was so cute in that movie and such a good person. Well, now I'm officially moving out to Cali after high school so I can stalk him. Haha! Probably not, but I will meet him! Oh yes I will!
WELL, I wish i could talk more but I have to get off now. My parents need to throw me a fricken bone here.
Dylan McNasty.... Dylan McNasty.... Dylan McNasty I could rant for hours about this kid but i'll spare you!
Well he is just really irritating. He acts like a baby all of the time, like in alg 2/ trig. We take a test/ quiz and he doesn't get it so he asks our teacher if he can take another time and our teacher is like "PSH, NO!" Then Dylan gets all upset an acts like a little kid who is A) gonna have a temper tantrum, B) gonna piss himself, or C) is gonna start crying. He needs to man up, for real. Sometimes, you just have to let it go, you know, just accept the fact that you don't know the crap and stop trying to be perfect.
So, today in math, Dylan tried to get all technical with our teacher about the packet we were working on, and he was saying something about gravity and then all i heard was Dylan practically scream, "VACUUMS HAVE GRAVITY!!!" and I, using my 4th grade knowledge, interjected and said "WHAT?! NO THEY DON'T!!" Then, he tried to talk down to me and was like, "I WOULD KNOW, I'M IN PHYSICS!!!!" And of course right as i was about to get ghetto and tell that fool off, the teacher told us to stop fighting, but i managed to get, "YOU HAVE ISSUES!!!!!" in quickly. I mean, I knew I was right. I remember reading it in the science books, seeing it on corny science videos, and seeing it in pictures. He just has issues so he likes to act like he is superior. We had a fire drill just minutes after our little girlfight and he like creeper up behind me and was like "YOU HAVE TO APPLY PRESSURE!"..... whatever the hell that means dude. Luckily, everybody had my back on this situation and Chris Coleman went up to him after the fire drill and told him he was wrong. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WIN!
alright moving on.........
Ok so one day i was bored and i was thinking about how hannukah is sometimes spelled channukah so i decided that people should say "CHAPPY CHANNUKAH!" and pronounce the C's. NEXT TOPIC
So this kid in my pe class was talking about this girls vag and he was like "IT STANKS! IT SMELLS LIKE DIRTY ASS BISCUITS AND OLD KETCHUP!!!!!" i know it wasn't nice, or true but it was just a funny thing to compare it to
AND LAST
MY PARENTS ARE SO........ UGH!!! They punish me for no reason and assume that i'm getting bad grades without even checking or anything. They yell at me to get off the computer and to clean my room, and even when i have everything all good, i still get yelled at to get off the computer cause "i'm addicted," as my mom says. I don't care what she thinks and for me, blogging and stuff is a hobby for me and something for me to take my frustration out on. They seriously like making me miserable. Also, they expect me to be perfect and have perfect grades, be a great swimmer, have a spotless room, etc. It is not possible for me to have perfect grades and swim 24/7. They don't get it. And if I do swim 24/7 and do all of my homework, my room isn't gonna be clean. I crash when I'm constantly active and when I don't get enough sleep. This is also the reason why I get sick alot. It weakens my immune system.
well first of all, i don't feel like as fat of a mermaid at practice now. more like a slow mermaid. haahaha. i'm getting better quickly...
alrighty, lets go!
1. Guys who think they are "playas" that get your number and send you lots of booty call texts, even though you already said no for like the millionth time.
2. People who act like they like you, yet tell everyone that they can't stand you... um either talk to me and work it out, or don't act like we're friends.
3. People who are instigators. These are people who like to stir things up and like to start drama when everything was going so smoothly.
4. When people invade my space, privacy, or touch/ take my stuff. I'm pretty territorial and i just don't like people who will just grab something from me or steal nice things from me.
5. Algebra 2/trig.
ALRIGHT STORY TIME
so this is a continuation of my list but i'm gonna elaborate on this one
6. People who think they are superior to you and that they can push you around.
People like number 6 drive me crazy, and not like the Britney song, like make me wanna kill people.
LOL ok so this year, I have dealt with many number 6's. Especially at lunch on odd days.
Here's the story. So at D lunch on odd days in the upper cafeteria, my friends and I sit at a table in the very back of the cafeteria, right next to the pizza line. The thing is, our table doesn't have a built in bench like most other lunch tables do. Ours is a long white rectangular table, not a round table. So anyways, when we get to D lunch we always have to hunt for chairs for everyone at our table because the cafeteria never has enough chairs and since it's D lunch, all the chairs are usually at the front of the cafeteria cause usually people prefer eating closer to the door so when the bell rings they don't get stuck in the herd trying to exit through 3 doors. So every day me and a couple other people hunt for chairs and usually have to carry 3 or 4 chairs across the cafeteria. Now here comes the drama.
Ok so the table in front of us is full of a bunch of "popular" kids. They are mostly juniors and a few sophomore. So their table is always super full cause everyone wants to be "popular" and wants to sit with the "popular people." Their table has a built in bench but because it is so crowded, they need to pull up chairs and occasionally like 3 guys have to sit at another table. So, what the COOL kids do is come up to my table where i just dragged 3 chairs across the cafeteria and take my friends' (who are in line buying lunch) book bags off of their chairs and steal them. I've stopped them before and sometimes they listen and put them back but sometimes they call me a bitch and steal them. Then they tell me that nobody was even sitting there even though their stuff was clearly there and they tell me to "get my own chairs." Then i explain to them that i just did and that THEY need to get their own chairs, and they don't care and once again i get called names for standing up for myself and my friends.
So last D lunch the same thing happened and once again i tried to stop them but they still got one of our chairs. So when they went into the lunch line, they tried to take their chairs with them cause they were afraid i was gonna take them. Then, the security lady yelled at them and called them idiots and made them put their chairs back. So the second they were buying their lunch, i took their chairs and hid them in the front of the cafeteria. So when they came out they were pissed that i took their chairs and they were trying take our chairs, and when they failed and had to get their own chairs, they told us that "we would pay" and that "they aren't our friends anymore!" I find that ridiculous because they never were our friends before and never talked to us and we shouldn't have to pay for doing the right thing. Society is so fucked up these days. End of story.
alright, next topic
7. People who fake friendships.
-You guys have all seen it. People being all fakey-fakey in the halls. It is so obvious. Especially when girls hug eachother and act like best friends, i can see through the lies. They ware just befriending eachother to use them. Usually this happens when a girl knows another girl if close friends with this guy that she REALLY likes. So next thing you know, they are "bffs." Then if the second girl (the one who is close with the other girls crush) ends up dating the guy, then the first girl just acts like they are the cutest couple and is a third wheel alot. Sometimes, the girl pretends to offer relationship advice, but all she is trying to do is break them up so that she can date him. If the selfish first girl ends up dating him, she forgets about the second girl. I hate people like that.
